Life for me is still going. I havn’t much to say right now, but I feel like bearing my soul onto a computer screen for lack of something better to do this late at night. I guess I could be sleeping. Nah.
Senior project is still kicking my ass, but at least I’ve managed to get 5 notecards done.
As far as jobs go I would have to say that I have a pretty good one. Its only making pizza at Papa Murphys so we don’t have to bake or deliver the pizza, and its not really all that hard. Sure it can be stressful in the rush hours on the weekends, but if thats the only stress one had to face, it really would be an okay world.
I guess the only topic left is boys. When I’m with him alone things are perfect and wonderful and beautiful, and everything I’ve ever wanted. But when hes around other people he pretty much forgets im around and seems to care more about his friends and other people to the point where he can say some pretty hurtful things. I can avoid this by avoiding him and all his friends, but I want more out of him than that. Maybe thats why I left. I guess when I left, I was hoping things would change. Now I realize I was wrong. I want to be able to spend time with him with the outside world. Why can’t he just treat me like he loves me everywhere?
oh well. Its a big problem in my life but I realize there are bigger ones. I’ve decided not to stress t much on it because I did that for the last year and I left him so I didn’t have too. I just need to vent sometimes.
Its time to consume myself in warm blankents and fluffly pillows.
Loves
Josie
